Letter to the First Girl I Had a Crush On
Jacqueline Gonzalez Perdóname. There are things I cannot say. The pum-pum-pum of my heart admit estoy encaprichada con usted; the late-night messages flush my face red, glances of iridescent eyes contrast my deep sepia, shy smiles gone too fast. Pero Escúchame. I can’t pretend I didn’t want more, but I created a mess. Eres importante. My friend, please entiende I don’t mean to offend when I say mi familia didn’t raise me with expectations to love women— not the way we did. Family always comes first, so por favor let me rephrase: my affections stay, but I lack the grace to engage. Confundida. Out of place. |
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About the Author: Jacqueline Gonzalez is a Mexican-American writer from Houston, Texas. She received a BFA in Creative Writing at Stephen F. Austin State University. She likes dogs, always lets her coffee get cold, and owns too many flannel shirts. Her work has been featured in the 16th issue of Blue Route.